I have thought something a few times, which was posited by a good friend last night: it's possible I'm pursuing this whole Engineering thing because I can. A lot of people aren't smart enough, or interested in science and mathematics enough, to learn to be an engineer. I went through school, and I did it well, I kicked some fucking engineering ass, and so here I am. But just because I can, and just because I've been trained, and just because I like pure engineering work, and just because I think the idea of an Engineer is an incredibly noble one -- none of that means I will be happy as an engineer.
I need to stop worrying so much about what everything looks like to everyone else.